afraid

don't be.

just because u might bump into him, don't let that scare u.

just because u make a promise, kalau ada jodoh, to meet at the entrance of the event, do not hesitate.

just because u decided to end everything and let it over, don't feel bad n sorry.

there are no space to fill up with all the nonsense.

we just simply stop talking and move on. there is nothing happened between us.

well. ur life is cherished after u make the decision, right?

it maybe not like obviously wonderful. but u have the freedom to be real u, withouy tied-up with confusing feeling n caught-up situations.

at least, u can do whatever things u want, go places wherever u wanna go, buy anything u wanna have, save up for all ur missions later.

n obviously, do not have to keep the unsure burden to urself.

it's ok if in the end, u're not gonna get married. i won't be troubling others when there is only me who's left, to take good care of myself.

in terms of happiness, just let all the others that ruined mine to be happy. if karma hit u back, then u get ur part. if u don't, maybe not now.

i'm not saying i'm a saint either. just be optimistic n get real, for the things that might not happen.

i'm scared n i'm tired n i'm about losing my faith to believe in miracles. out of there's so many mistakes i've done, this is largest of all that unbearable.

if ever it will not happen, maybe by then i will be closer than ever.

closer to the creator.

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lonely

i do feel a bit lonely, here and there.

sometimes.

but i guess, if the good guy is not there, there are no points for me to proceed for marriage.

perhaps i would love to consider on being single for the rest of my life.

it's just that. it's hard for me to trust guys anymore. i don't know.

that feeling inside.

it's not that i'm gonna die if i'm not married right? even if i die, there's no one even care to bother right?

the efffect will just be the same.

no need to think too much lah.

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